the things i have come away with lately have more to do with departure
and less on arrival.
more to do with taking risks,
and less on survival.

i believe that when we take in the energy of a place
and breathe it into our souls,
that a part of our own energy lingers there
long after we're gone

i think i've finally realized
that what it might be all about
is trying to run a course of direction through the space of life
without running off the road trying to read the map

the thing about time is that even when we try so very hard
to contain it,
it always slips through the cracks that we didn't see-
didn't account for
and had no way of knowing even existed
as
it washes over us every minute of the day and erodes us
like water over stones...
etching us into things that we never saw before-
didn't account for
and had no way of knowing even could
exist.

it's never long that winter falls from grace before
it redeems itself again in the most
profound way.

i wish i had known
that i didn't know what i thought i knew
so i at least would know something.

even after all these years as a human, i'm still trying to figure it all out.....
learning how not to always stand on the edge of it, but walk into it...
sometimes wishing there were training footsteps with numbers on them showing me where to step and which foot to step with
knowing that even though it feels like it's set in stone, it really isn't because i have the power to change that,
and if i'm not careful, i could chip away at it so recklessly that i could reduce it to nothing but rubble.

in this new year,
let us all remember to step with care
and,
to dance when life feels heavy,
even when we don't have footsteps to follow along in.

i wish you all a beautiful new year.
xo